::sigh:: yup that basically sums it all up.
so u knoe that email i sent ralphy last week well he wrote me back a few days ago and you know what....ralpy and teddy broke up. yea i was and still am wicked sad. probably more than they are. and i think that mostly has to do with the fact that im good friends with both of them. and theyve only been together for liek what 3 years, well minus those 2 weeks they broke up a couple years ago. they were also so perfect for eachother..oh well whatcha guna do. god if i was selfish i would just tell ralphy to come home and go to Hartt since he now has to find an apartment and stuff.
so i gues grandma is having a hard time. shes already lost all of her hair and her wig isnt working. mom gets really sad when she talks to her. i havent talked to her on the phone since my birthday and i dont know if i can. imafraid that shes not her happy-go-lucky self and that scares me. maybe ill try on one of her good days this week. i do miss her a lot and i jsut want to tell her i love her.
me, alex, and jackie went on a tour through cedar hill cemetary. i swear i degress to the age of 12 when i go by dad, which we had to do twice bc the tour began and ended at the mosilium. i put a packet of skittles in between the mums by his head stone, which now that i think of it is actually a foot stone...lol. and ive noticed that i get this nervous feeling when im in the cemetary, well until i get to dad then i relax a bit. sometimes i jsut miss him so much that i cant even explain. and for some reason ive been thinking and talking about him even more than usual.
still no progress in the whole zack situation. and u know what. it sucks as when u have that want to just snuggle with some one and then have a some one in mind yet u cant do anything about it...arg! and i think half the problem is is that when it comes to guys i find cute i get shy and from what i hear from anna he's kinda shy..so 2 shys = little to no progress..lol.
but yea theres a bunch of other stuff i want to write about but im just so tired and its so late and im trying to figure out why im even still up. so good night!